Pissed Off. Hurt. Family sucks.

Last night, we dropped off Paige to my parents' house. They were watching her for us today and it's alot easier to have her there the night before so I'm not doing a 6:00 AM drop-off :)

My sister, "B", was there last night and today. At one point, B put tape over Paige's mouth...while my mother was in the room.

I wouldn't have known a thing until my mom told me to keep any tape we may have around up. I was confused at first and had to ask for clarification. My mom then explained how B had put the tape over Paige's mouth and once it was removed, Paige reached for the tape again.

I promptly lost it.

Back, about 10 1/2 years ago, I did tape my B's mouth shut in the car after my dad's company party. I had my parents permission and I was 16/17 while she was 13/14 at the time.

When I called to freak out on her (and freak out I did), she tried to throw that experience back in my face. Looking back at it, it wasn't my smartest decision but it was funny because my parents were OK with it, and she agreed to it (and knew what she was agreeing to). B understand what I was doing and comprehended it.

Paige didn't know. She didn't understand.

Being around a toddler is an experience - you try to teach your kid the proper way to act. You're an example at all times, even when you don't want to be.

I am above and beyond mad. Even now, hours after I found out. I've told B that she cannot see Paige (which apparently is NOT heart-breaking to her). I've called her names, I've yelled. And now? Now I'm not happy. I want a punching bag, because if B had been home, I can almost guarantee I would have hit her. I have this pent up anger where I just want to grab B by the shoulders and shake her for being so frickin stupid. I want to teach her what it means to be an aunt, to be an adult around a toddler.